Friday, August 10, 2007

Fill Your Heart

Every day lately has been bringing some new minor challenge (eg: learning how to drill), nugget of learning (eg: feeling compassion toward my dad instead of impatience), glimpse of the great unknown (eg: watching my radiators get hammered to bits) and faint taste of inner peace (eg: finally getting my ass to a yoga class).

Maybe it is my upcoming birthday or the new responsibilities of homeownership but I feel sure of only one thing these days, you better fill your heart with love today, don't play the game of time. Things that happened in the past only happened in your mind.

I finally brought a boom box and some music over to my new house. I grabbed 5 tapes randomly and the first song to BLAST through my crumbling ancient walls sent me dancing around its rooms like a spinning top.

Fucking David Bowie, he makes me feel so DAMN Hunky Dory...

"Fill Your Heart"

Fill your heart with love today
Don't play the game of time
Things that happened in the past
Only happened in your Mind
Only in your Mind-Forget your Mind
And you'll be free-yea'
The writing's on the wall
Free-yea'. And you can know it all
If you choose. Just remember
Lovers never lose
'Cause they are Free of thoughts unpure [sic]
And of thoughts unkind
Gentleness clears the soul
Love cleans the mind
And makes it Free.

Happiness is happening
The dragons have been bled
Gentleness is everywhere
Fear's just in your Head
Only in your Head
Fear is in your Head
Only in your Head
So Forget your Head
And you'll be free
The writing's on the wall
Free-yea'. And you can know it all
If you choose. Just remember
Lovers never lose
'Cause they are free of thoughts unpure
And of thoughts unkind
Gentleness clears the soul
Love cleans the mind
And makes it Free!!

In other news, I saw the biggest, scariest CREEPY CRAWLY I have ever seen in my life scurrying on its hundreds of legs into the dark depths of my already-plenty-ominous-basement. Maybe all that sage I was burning and Bowie I was blasting scared Mr. Horrible out of his evil hiding place? Eeek.

5 comments:

Undead Molly said...

I am listening to Bowie right now! No lie. Spooky. Is there life on Maaaaaaaaaars?

Your 'house' is becoming your 'home'! All you need now is a dog. I'm so happy for you! I'm going to leave something in your front mud room/antechamber/vestibule/whatever you call that space on my way in to work.

I think what you saw was probably a "house centipede".

Salty Miss Jill said...

Sounds like everything is coming together and falling into place. I love when that happens. :)

When is your birthday? Mine also looms!

Eva the Deadbeat said...

Molly, I have uncovered more tapes and they are all Bowie! My, that man can warble like silk! [and i think there is life on mars]

i am not sure what mr horrible was but he better not decide to come crawling on me in bed at night with his ten zillion little leggies. eek!

and thanks for the book and coupons - oh boy, can't wait to start fixing stuff! where to start?

next week Jill, Wed. what about you? we LEos need to stick together in our prides, GRRRRRR!

Anonymous said...

eva,
I too have been in own funky mood. Probally due to a sort of cabin fever of having to be inside for most of the day due to the heat(105 yesterday)The air in my car broke down twice and now have trouble rolling the windows down.
So I'll follow your example and put some Bowie on. I need more scary monsters in my life
take care
Tony

Q_Monroe said...

just catching up on my deadbeatdirt blog reading right now (back to work, you know). ew, creepy crawlies. i saw a BIG snake whilst in AZ. also a big smushed scorpion on the road when i was running! eeks.

can't wait to see the improvements on your happy home. i'm around this weekend, so call on my to help with whatever hard labor that needs to be done. and maybe you'll take a break and come out on the water with me and paulie?