Monday, August 06, 2007

Crap Monday

Argh. it is just going to be one of those days/weeks...crap...

I could blame it on the quitting smoking which is making me want to rip my hair out and spread feces on the walls. Seriously, it is not pleasant.

I quit two times in my life already (see blog post) and this recent smoke-inhaling resurgence can be blamed on Spielpalast inspired stress/nerves (of which there was plenty). But the cabaret has been over for months now and my latest excuse, home buying stress, is also wearing thin. Time to grow up a bit and face the nerves head on without the aid of tobacco. Damn it.

Or I could blame it on a fun-filled weekend which involved many stressful moments and guffaws. Or perhaps it could be blamed on that hellish moment when I realized that I taped over some of my BEST footage from the weekend - also known as the moment that the world came crashing down overhead, also known as "NOOOOO!"

Or maybe it is the inevitable Monday morning flurry of emails requesting this and that and that other thing. Or it could be the hour long conversation with B&H video about DVD duplication that left my head swimming.

Maybe I am not cut out for this digital media crap? Maybe I need to go live in a yurt and spend my days knitting and digging in the dirt?

Or perhaps I should shut up and stop spreading blame/angst all over the place. Damn it, I would really enjoy a cigarette about now...time to edit...


Junk Thief said...

Good that you're making the effort to quit. Hang in they're darlin', your body will thank you when you're my age. I have smoked 3-4 cigarettes my entire life, and fortunately hated it each time.

I think the digital media is like any activity, too much of it makes you batty. I had conference calls from 7:30 a.m. to 1:30 p.m. with one bathroom break. Oy.

I've spent time in a yurt (in Marin County, not Mongolia, mind you), and I think doing that for more than a day would drive me as batty as electronic overload.

Variety, my dear, keeps us sane. Get in a little fresh air in those now pure lungs.

Eva the Deadbeat said...

Sound advice, all. You are wise O Junk Thief.

It is wet and rainy and the thought of a walk in this lovely gloom fills me with joy. I think I might have to take an editing break and indulge my lungs.

I agree. It is repetition that is really irksome. And as long as you shake it up a wee bit, things stay fresh and good.

Ultimately, I love what technology gives me. So that makes it worth it if I have to slog through some of the more annoying bits like setting up a DVD duplicating system and working around software constraints. Argh.

Emily said...

Oh, quitting smoking is so awful -- but so worth it! I quit almost 5 years ago and I promise you that it gets easier (though I still miss it).
It sounds like you're busy, which should help keep your mind off of it. Also, knitting helps, and a 1 pound bag of Twizzlers. Yum!
Good luck to you!

Eva the Deadbeat said...

Thanks for the vote of support Emily! It is only Day Two so hopefully this itching need to slit my wrists will abate soon.

Twizzlers and knitting sound like a lovely combo - far better than sitting in front of a computer allll day looooong...argh...

Nice to run into you the other night - here is to more random movie run ins! ;)

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Salty Miss Jill said...

Knitting is a great way to help with smoking you something to do with your hands. And you are so super that I can see you purling away and editing video at the same time!

Hang in there,lady. This is all the good kind of stress...sounds like it's all about acheiving things you want, rather than the stress of dealing with repercussions of something awful.

I got my money on Eva! :)

Eva the Deadbeat said...

HAW! I wish I could knit whilst editing! I am too busy editing to knit much these days but I cast longing glances at my cabinets of yarn often...once it gets cooler perhaps...i ca sit on my new porch, listen to the water and pearl...

Good point Miss Jill and thanks for reminding me of it. All is good and I think I can deal with this average stress without the magic smoking sticks.

It is Day 3 of no-smoking and I already feel less freaky...bit by bit!