tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23847578.post115455368525568764..comments2023-11-05T06:28:45.388-05:00Comments on The Deadbeat Club: Life is Meaning LessEva the Deadbeathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08261305272649512551noreply@blogger.comBlogger8125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23847578.post-1155234319884573152006-08-10T14:25:00.000-04:002006-08-10T14:25:00.000-04:00damion, thanks for your comment! i think you are ...damion, <BR/><BR/>thanks for your comment! i think you are right that this mad compulsion to produce is an avoidance technique that keeps you just busy enough to ignore what is right in front of your face. i am torn btw wanting to leave a unique footprint and wanting to space out and let my mind drift where it may (perhaps to a story about ponies in love - i dig it! - kind of reminds me of Legend and those darn purty unicorns...). <BR/><BR/>maybe all this is some biological urge that is satisfied by having kids? i dunno. or maybe this is all meaningless and no matter what you do, you die empty and alone. either way, i think time to space out is important. i plan on scheduling some time to do this real soon ;) <BR/><BR/>i find that it is usually in my down time when my best ideas drift in - but it is in crunch periods when i manage to accomplish things i never thought possible...Eva the Deadbeathttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08261305272649512551noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23847578.post-1155176421779957662006-08-09T22:20:00.000-04:002006-08-09T22:20:00.000-04:00I am the same way, compulsively looking for that n...I am the same way, compulsively looking for that next thing to do that will blow everyone away. I am finding that all this false self-motivation is keeping me from looking around and seeing things on their own terms and, by extension, who I actually am as opposed to who I think I should be. Now that I've slowed down inbetween jobs I am doing and thinking a lot better. I just wrote a love story about ponies. Totally weird, but if you read it you'd get it. Who knows where it came from, but if I was operating like I was before it never would have come out. <BR/><BR/>btw: long-time watcher, first time commenter.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23847578.post-1154724119429678872006-08-04T16:41:00.000-04:002006-08-04T16:41:00.000-04:00dear mr MG, i mean JB, panini is right up there wi...dear mr MG, i mean JB, panini is right up there with fried dough, fried reubens and fried ice cream - all mouth watering and drizzling with sin...mmmm...panini...Eva the Deadbeathttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08261305272649512551noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23847578.post-1154707978609084122006-08-04T12:12:00.000-04:002006-08-04T12:12:00.000-04:00speaking of panini, i just had one from the new me...speaking of panini, i just had one from the new meditarano cafe five corners in the jct. yummy!<BR/><BR/>jbthe le duohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11464027071012372238noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23847578.post-1154703332082371032006-08-04T10:55:00.000-04:002006-08-04T10:55:00.000-04:00oh mel, you are so good at wrapping everything up ...oh mel, you are so good at wrapping everything up into tight little packages, that is why america loves you! glad to see you are sober long enough to post some comments in the blogosphere. perhaps you need your own blog?<BR/><BR/>love from your panini loving pal!Eva the Deadbeathttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08261305272649512551noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23847578.post-1154702448457447832006-08-04T10:40:00.000-04:002006-08-04T10:40:00.000-04:00existence is meaningless- all this hmmmmm'n and ha...existence is meaningless- all this hmmmmm'n and hawwwww'n are just your attempts to forget this. You keep your panini- as long as I can keep my tequila and ant-semitism<BR/><BR/>mgAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23847578.post-1154632241653486492006-08-03T15:10:00.000-04:002006-08-03T15:10:00.000-04:00maybe it isn't a bummer? maybe that is part of th...maybe it isn't a bummer? maybe that is part of the beauty of this wild and wonderful life? perhaps holding on and letting go are both fine as coping mechanisms and even if they don't bring 'happiness' persay, maybe they bring something else, a reason to get up each morning...? maybe being fulfilled is overrated? maybe you can find peace in a lack of fulfillment?<BR/><BR/>but you are right that it is important to be here in the now and see what good is in front of you - after all, there is a lot of good. like the kick ass pesto mozzarella panini sandwich i had for lunch....mmmmm...panini. why are so many of my simple pleasures food related i wonder?Eva the Deadbeathttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08261305272649512551noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23847578.post-1154628799201896602006-08-03T14:13:00.000-04:002006-08-03T14:13:00.000-04:00i'm far from Budhist, far far... if anything my qu...i'm far from Budhist, far far... if anything my questioning you is a way to find company in my own inability to "just be" <BR/>though giving up on the giant footprint is important i think, not just because it all fades, but because staring out to the horizon makes makes you unable to see what right in front of you. (mixed metaphors much...)<BR/><BR/>But i know you know all this, and i know i know all this... in the end i guess it doesn't matter what you believe, just how well it works for you, how happy and fullfilled in life it makes you... by that measurment, you're holding on is about as effective as my letting go... bummer hu? :DTanner M.https://www.blogger.com/profile/09122584783341437711noreply@blogger.com